hate it.hate it. hate it.


man...i've sat here for two hours,just thinking. ugh just one of those days whee you actually can't stand anything because your sick of everyone with there little false fronts and false smiles and oh my god do they actually think were blind??

also..what the fuck!!all i've been getting is these looks lately and to be honest i'm fucking sick of them,and i'm sick of fucking town oh my god!!!eariler on today was so much more adventurous than most other days..wanna know why?because i didn't drag my arse around the marshes the entire day!and it was fucking brilliant!i got interesting photo's AND new records from it.

sooo can't wait to 2008 to be over,another year older,another year wiser another year to start anew.

^^

man..it's nearly 2009,scary huh?
this year flew by so fast!it's ridcilious!so much has happened this year and as much as a rant about my life an my silly teenage problems that have happend over the year,i honest to god don't regret a bit of it! although...i wish i discovered belgian chocolate cake sooner lol.
mhm...the smell of bleach hurts my head!but the end result is always oh so amazing!^^ i think i've a problem..i like to dye my hair farrr to much!
gig saturday should be good!as i've stated in my previous blog..there's not really many things in dundalk that teenagers look forward to.

my phones broke!!!:( my lovley new shiney red phone failed on me yesterday!so i'm stuck with a sham of a phone that hangs up on people and wont send texts and my god i could go on for hours listing the problems my back up phone has! pift...some back up!

good mood chuck.

wow,it's actually beginning to feel like christmas!and what a better way to spend christmas eve than having a nice long lie in till two only to be woken up by the sound of a guitar ^^
freebies today?two free doughnuts courtsy of nial from the bagel bar!man..i love my life!bubbles!!yeah..spent a good half hour outside the marshes wishing randomers happy christmas whilst running around like a five year old catching bubbles with pure determination to never let one pop off the ground....i failed lol,but it was fun whilst it lasted!

the best part about not being a kid anymore..is getting half your presents on christmas eve instead of waking up shit early,one eye half open attempting to sneak down the stairs and opening your presents whilst nearly falling asleep on them lol!i love how my parents pick out things that i really love!i got myself like a fucking never ending supply of canvas' and paints and brand new shiney paint brushes and ohh there all so pretty!!^^

half my clothes have gone missing...and i have my suspicions,my older sisters back so i'm assuming the bitch has either hidden them all,or is wearing them all!lol.

mhm...i hope it snows!i haven't seen snow in so fucking long!speaking of which well it actually has nothing got to do with anything i was saying but it just drifted into my head i found my old bop it today!!!remember the game...that was really irritating and annying yet you had to play it until you won everyone?yeah..that baby!!ahh i'm dead happy!^^.

bloody god damn dundalk!

i'm sooo fuckign tired of being bored!i hate the fact that every week is the exact same!
school monday to friday town on friday town saturday and sunday..oh yeah and in town all we seem to do is hang round the marshes,get kicked out because or stupid group is too big and even if your not actually in the group?you'll still managed to get kicked out..simply because your a teenager!
all this happens bar you know..the odd time when..{wait for it} dun dun dun!!! a gig comes along!they only happen once a month but the build up to it it's like" ah wow i can't wait for this ahh ahh blah blah fucking blah" the gig itself turns out to be rubbish,you get pissed and can't remember the half of it,get with someone you more than likely will regret and all this is the highlight of a teenager in dundalk!
yeah..you guessed it!were a pretty sad bunch!

also...why is there so many people that associate anybody who doesn't dress like a queen of fucking knackers as a "grunger" my god...come up with new insults already!
i'm so fucking bored of everything!including the fact that my life is like a fucking cracked record. and also...i hate socks! a few people may know what i'm talking about but i really do!

why in godsname is there such a lack of them!please if anybody knows the answer post it to "desperate".

arrgghh!

i hate trade fairs ¬¬.
three hours,three whole god damn hours of making a tea cup! a fucking tea cup!my god....tradr fairs are horribble horrible things!!! stupid cafe...stupid guitar..stu[id glitter!grr!
ah wow..the whole day off classes!great?haha...wrong! personallt i hate days where you do nothing,no classes just bum round the school or seomthing,mailny because i actually have no idea what to do with myself!so today i went and goes you know what?i'll make the sign...none of my ideas were taken into account,am i bothered?not really no. so we made a poster...and went to put glitter on the words,the glitter fucked up and there was shit loads of the paper yuo could still see!so..me being the stupid god damn freak decided to spen my entire lunch and a further hour and a half fixing this so our stand could look "pretty" ¬¬.
arrrggghhh!

man....i'm hungry!:/

smiles all round!

ahah well...today was quite the uhm..exprience!>< woke up..tought my brother french my god that boy's thick!had no breakfeast and ran out the door with a nutrigrain bar in my mouth at what...twelve o clock on my day off!!lol.
the things i do for people!anyways..where was i,yeah but like yeah..so i eventually reached tesco and i went in search of the cheap ass milk chocolate and a drink and i discovered some nutrigrain bars and i was feeling hungry so i thouhg fuck it..so what if i become obese lol!
i was getting all these funny looks and i was like ehh..what the fuck do i have stare stamped on my head?it was only then i relised i was fucking bopping round singing along to my ipod in the queue i was dying!!

i eventually found out where the grammer was..and i bumped into a few mates on the way lol. it was a free wear day so they managed to sneak me in and the teachers passed no remarks what so ever!!!lol.
i though it was good craic lol. mhm.

town on the other hand,my god!there was nobody in but i found a few peoplee to keep me sane. i'm a comoulsive buyer i buy when i'm happy sad or angry lol!i just can't helo it sooo i bought a flower badge pink lemonaid pringles and uhm a new bag it's sooo pretty!!^^

my god.

man...
friends you say,well..i'm right here. i don't get it. meh...i'm giving up,on everything. everyone.
today was shite...well yeah,pretty much. well..no,the ending was awful. the day itself was pretty good.
made friends with the bagel guy's nial and richard!and we now have our own specials,to me that's a great and wonderfull achievement. we also made friends with the guy from penny's whos name i can't quite remember but sure no matter.
i'm sorry about today,i really am. sometimes i just need to explode and stuff..lol perfect timing eh? sorry little guy who i probaly scared shitless i'm pretty sure i put you off girls for life,my bad!
it's nice to know people are going through the same things that you are.
were in this together i guess lol.

man,i need to control my anger :S paint could work..kinda?
agh.

tgif?

T.G.I.F!

lol...man,normally i adore fridays,but today..I've went through every emotion that I'm capable of going through! happy this morning..also tired,angry towards the end of school bored in town confused about people/things in general. I'm easily confused and tend to blank out an awufl lot..but i am working on it lol.
it's official i'm an awfully moody person,oh well!lol.

i had the nicest subway of my life today it was so fucking ahhh*drools* lol. mhm, also...for the first time ever,i've tried an pringle subway!!!sounds gak?but my god it's yup!gak..that just reminded me gok wan's going to dublin on saturday man i'd love to go!!:( god damn lack of money.
mhm..I've mixed feeling about tomorrow,it's town yeah..which is always boring but some how you manage to get a good laugh with your friends but mhm theres a gig on and i really don't want to go but there's nothing else to do...then there's the flag day which involves me going to superquinn at like fucking ten in the morning..so basically i stand around with a bucket for an hour or two begging for money..fun!!

man..i'm so sleepy!and it's so bloody cold!i was not born for this weather!!lol!

bleh.

mhm..not a good day,i feel distant from everyone lately..and i have no idea like do i smell or something?lol.
ah..anyways.yeah...it's so annoying,thus my wierd compulsive blogging which mainly consist of rants but sure,no matter.
right now the only thing keeping me sane?is tea...my paints and those few nice people i talk to on msn,i've become an addict of msn too lately :S
so my life isn't exactly what you'd call intresting but on the bright side i sat and watched ameile again man i love that film!she's soo pretty and her whole lifes just so bizzar!you've gotta love the french :]

mhm...saturday,what to do what to do. to gig?or not to gig? right now..not to gig seems like a good enouhg option. go into town shit early,sell flags for the life boat people {yeah..i'm just that cool lol} bum around town till people actually turn up ehh...oh buy a four euro tub of ice-cream from the really nice ice-cream lady that me and alex made friends with!^^ uhm..i'm in the mood to buy flowers so i might by some fro my room eh..oh paints!and then come home around seven..yeah!that sounds pretty decent to me!
plan.

good news.

apparently i rant too much. so i'm going to satasfy you all by writing happy,preppy feel good man i live my life blogs.oh and to you fuckers who won't actually say these things to my face...grow some balls :]

good news.

uniform!

what is the point of uniform checks?? seriously,whewn you think about it...everyone breaks some sort of rule; like from make up to jewllery it's an all girls school for godsake! mhm...i just happened to be wearing every signle thing under the sun!not cool...lol.
mhm,schools so boring today!and we have to do reharsals for pretty much most of the week and if i hear don't stop me now one more fucking time i will actually go insane!!!

and i want to kill a certain ginger,but i think everyone knows that.lol.

mhm...i'm hungry,but on the bright side it's only like ten wait no twelve min's till break!mhm...oasis and eh,oh a chocolate nutri-grain bar.little addictive cunts!lol. but there so god damn nice!!!!!lol.

i love making up fake plans to kill people..it's so pointless but make everyone feel so much better about themselves and it saves the efofrt and bother of actually starting a fight and all that shite!see where i'm comming from?like...mhm i don;'t know lets take a girly girl who for some strange reason everyone love but she's comepelty made up and she's only liked for her make up and designers and clothes. you starve them from therer designer labels and make up that costs fifty euro to look at. poor girl..now she has to be like a normal person.idiot. lol.

i love blogs!!:]

i hate mondays.

i actually hate them...there always so fucking shite and blehhh!today was such a bore. and to be honest,i'm sick of not talking to people,
and i'm hungry..which doesn't exactly improve my mood or views on things at the moment.
i'm sick of not being able to trust people..and i'm sick of the people who if i say anything to blow it wayyy out of proportion and what not. like come on!!arrggghh! and my blogging days were going so well up until this fucking god damn shitty moment of self pitty and annoyance.
and theres no nice food in the house.arrgghh!

jam pot?

pift. and my hair is doing my fucking god damn head in!!you know when your like ah wow..i love this cut i'l so get it and then it grows out and hits that horrible tween level..where it's not short enough and not long enough and looks like one enormus ball of pink mush?yeah..that's the discription on my hair!! so..i'm on the brink of fucking shaving it..i think the sinead o connor look would suit me just lovely..don't you?

ahhh!!!not a good moment.

i'm in desperate need of new paints....and canvases'. mhm..i might venture into town one of the days after school. ah..as much as i love the weekends i fucking hate sunday! it's such a bore...and it's such a lazy day! and you haven't expirenced the height of lazyness until you've been dragged out of bed at three in the afternoon by a hungry blonde lol. not cool..but on the bright side i finally seen sin city!and my god it's amazing!!i love frank miller!^^

if i eat another purple snack bar..i'm going to explode,either that or i eat so many that they all somehow squish up in my head and squeezes out my brain through my nose and i'll die!!lol.

school tomorrow ugh,work..effort,homework that was due not done,getting up early..frezing to death every god damn morning!ah..tomorrow's not going to be fun!!lol.

fridayyyy!!

it's friday!!!thank god!comming to the end of a week..and the start of another AND also means...we've like ehh,three weeks left until winter holidays!!ahhhh can't wait!
today began like shite..i was made take of my make up in school,i poked myself in the eye when i was trying to take out my contact so i now have this wierd red blood shot thing in like one side of my eye and the other one keeps twitching!BUT..it gradually got better! lunch was good craic,as always it involved one of the t.y's running into a wall so i got a good laugh out of it..our entire science class broke into song!"don't stop me now" we got through to the finals of search for a star which is on in like less than two weeks may i remind you!lol. uhmm yeah then i discovered this magicl thing called a pencil case so i can pretty much get away with texting in every class...well i got away with it today!lol!^^ but then..on my way into town my phone died!it was awful...but it soon got better when i laid my eyes on a massive and i mean massive jar of sweets i;m talking the length of my arm!!!lol so i had a few of them and now i'm on this! i'm going to be a sad ass child and go watch the late late toy show,and laugh at pat kenny!lol.

!!!!

man!i just remembered tomorrow friday!!!!ahhhh thank god!!! nearly the weekend..no school!
town..subway(my latest addiction it's actually ridclious at this stage!) more town oh and dubin!:) i need clothes..i have plenty but like,i need new ones lol. so i say a little trip to dublin sunday will do the job!^^
or banbridge..i have yet to go there fuck it i shall have a major shopping spree! sponsered my the parentels!lol.

ahhh....winter!i love it..it's all pretty but cold,so so cold!but sure it's an excuse to wear hats i guess,oh and jumpers but then again we are in ireland people and it's ALWAYS and i mean always either absoloutly freezing,pissing out of the heavens or just that miserable sad excuse for rain that we always seem to have!you know?the one that your like ahh sure it's only drizzle so you don't bother putting up your umbrella yet,by the time you reach your destination your absoloutly soaked?yeah..i have that pretty much every day!!!

hmm!

okay,well i'm slightly worried considering these past two days were actually good!and for once in my life...i didn't do anything compelety clutzy or anything!
seriously!ah wow..might as well enjoy it as it lasts :)

paint! i'm painting shite again...so my once black key board is now white and you can no longer see the t or b buttons lol,oh well!!^^
man...i'm sooo hungry,and theres nothing nice to eat in my house it's awful!ever hit that stage of hunger where your actually soooo unbelivebly hungry that your stomach talks?yeah well i'm at the stage AFTER that..where you begin to understand what your stomachs saying!lol it doesn't sound too good does it?lol.

quizz!!

man..i really have to stop writing rants. but sure...fuck it!
mhm..boring day,same faces,same school,same old bloody routine time for change?i think so.
but what,what the hell can make just one little week different thats all i want is a little change.

mhm,weetabix!

new found love Dali. i liked my art class today,even though we did sweet fuck all but hey it was an excuse to get more paints and what not.
boredom,done absolutely nothing today and i don't think I've ever hated the government this much in my life,we'd have such a better education system if they hadn't have blown money on medical cards for all oh and those silly little pictures on the backs of cigarette packets,as if there actually going to put people off cop on!

also,love life. it's getting worse..it went from shite to extinction!

irritating fucks.

don't you just hate the sad people in theis world yet...for some bizzare reason people seem to adore them?yeah..i know one. one with a fucking twisted sadistic life! she shall remain nameless but i'm guessing you know who you are *coughs* monobrowed whore*coughs* grrrrr.... and  another thing that i've notcied. even though she's a compelete whore she still manages to have every sinle guy wrapped around her llittle finger. i hate her..for one main reason only,she's compeletly and utterly destroyed a few peoples lives and a few i'm rather close to. back stabbing,irritating sadastic sun of a diddley!!lmao..

ugh!!!!

grrr ....

some people are just far too up themselves,seriously! and to be honest i know a fair share of people like that and i'm quite sick of to be honest. between annoying drama queens,damanding idiots to down right whores i know them all.
demanding idiots,don't you just hate them?because i know i fucking do! they expect you to be at there every beckon call!seriously...it's like oi i want you do do something for me just drop everything that your doing and do what ever blah blah fucking blah!i'm a very angry person and i'm sick of keeping in my anger and my god one of these day's i will actually just knock them right out of it!and my god...don't get me started on the drama queens!you tell them things and they blow everything wayyy out of proportion! it's actually ridiculous at this stage!and yet for some bizzare fucking reason people adore them and follow them arrghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 seriously, people!you need a reality check!
and whore...haha my god!i know a fair few but my god one just tops them all..yeah you probably know who i'm talking about but i shall not stoop to thier level by naming the easy idiot who claims to have all the guy's wrapped around her little finger when there all just using her because she's an easy fucking idiot who is more than likely going to get knocked up one of these days and arrggghh!

lack of guys.

yeah..there's a serious lack of boys in this town we call dundalk. and to be honest any of the few there is?there all compelete and utter cunts. it's true..ask any girl and they'll tell you the same thing. there all whores or knack-bags.
and if that's not bad enough..they bring all these new little weemo's into the group who act far too mature for there age and of course as you know girls don't come in two's they come in bloody packs so you see my problem here?there's girls..lots of them all really pretty and young and taking all the decent very few decent guys we older generation have well had.
so...i say we shoot them. but you know as well as i do it's not going to happen :/

mid-term.

well..this mid-term was quite the uhm..expirence!
i went to spain you see,with one of my friends rii. a number of odd things happen but fuck me they we're some memories!><
so here's a few things that happened.

1} firstly I'm a bad luck magnet..or so I've noticed recently. rii has never missed a bus in her life,now after spending a week with me waiting on buses in Spain she's missed five at least!and got off the wrong stop and ended up in some seriously dodgy ass part of Spain. "I'm hungry" hungry..yeah i developed a sudden urge for doughnuts whilst waiting for a bus even thought it was about to come any min i simply just had to go and satisfy my needs! so..i did. i went to the little Spanish supermarket and my god the Spanish are fine and extremely perverted but..i shall get onto that more later! so there i was with my two euro doughnuts,walking back towards the bus stop i opened them and decided fuck it..there not nice so i went back in for a drink instead. dragging rii along! so we got our stuff when i noticed a bus go passed "bus...bus...bus,oh fuck!our bus!!!" this soon followed by me legging it for the buss and rii lying on the pavement in absolute knots whether me?i didn't find it amusing in the slightest. i ran my legs off me only to miss the bus by less than an inch! seriously not cool ¬¬

2} i got chatted up my some stoner guy who was in his thirties AT LEAST! "ahh you must come partay in the London pub" i tell you now,i never left a shop so fast!

3}you see...it flooded for two days straight there and the two of us being the bright sparks that we are decided it would be amazing to have a smoke out the window!did i mention the window wasn't sheltered?my fag broke because it was so wet and my hair got wet too...so i decided to have a smoke with a plastic bag on my head!genius?i think so!^^

4} scared to death by a pirate!well..a man dressed up as one!

5}ate the nicest eclair known to mankind!!!!!!but according to rii it was a chocolate penis "leave me alone to eat my chocolate covered penis in peace god dammit!"

6}okay,I'm not the most mature people I'll say that much but my god i never got so much enjoyment out of throwing a mattress down the side of a bed and hiding duvet covers and pillows in a wardrobe in all of my life!!!x] hey..I'm fifteen,you only live once right?lmao.

the chocolate there was absolute shit!!"seriously..i think all the factories give all their nice sweets to Ireland and the shit ones to Spain" well said.
lollipops!!! my god got the biggest lollies ever..there the size of my fucking head,I'm not kidding they we're so nice!

I'm a fab of spaghetti! it's official...it took a few years but i officially like it!and Japanese..mhm!^^

inspired

right so...I've basically just been sitting here bored out of my brains decided what to to..how to occupy myself then it suddenly hit me. rii my good mate your little rants about how i should start a blog has finally paid off!
so voila...i give you,my first ever blog :) which i'm quite proud of.warning : i babble an awful lot.