hate it.hate it. hate it.


man...i've sat here for two hours,just thinking. ugh just one of those days whee you actually can't stand anything because your sick of everyone with there little false fronts and false smiles and oh my god do they actually think were blind??

also..what the fuck!!all i've been getting is these looks lately and to be honest i'm fucking sick of them,and i'm sick of fucking town oh my god!!!eariler on today was so much more adventurous than most other days..wanna know why?because i didn't drag my arse around the marshes the entire day!and it was fucking brilliant!i got interesting photo's AND new records from it.

sooo can't wait to 2008 to be over,another year older,another year wiser another year to start anew.

^^

man..it's nearly 2009,scary huh?
this year flew by so fast!it's ridcilious!so much has happened this year and as much as a rant about my life an my silly teenage problems that have happend over the year,i honest to god don't regret a bit of it! although...i wish i discovered belgian chocolate cake sooner lol.
mhm...the smell of bleach hurts my head!but the end result is always oh so amazing!^^ i think i've a problem..i like to dye my hair farrr to much!
gig saturday should be good!as i've stated in my previous blog..there's not really many things in dundalk that teenagers look forward to.

my phones broke!!!:( my lovley new shiney red phone failed on me yesterday!so i'm stuck with a sham of a phone that hangs up on people and wont send texts and my god i could go on for hours listing the problems my back up phone has! pift...some back up!

good mood chuck.

wow,it's actually beginning to feel like christmas!and what a better way to spend christmas eve than having a nice long lie in till two only to be woken up by the sound of a guitar ^^
freebies today?two free doughnuts courtsy of nial from the bagel bar!man..i love my life!bubbles!!yeah..spent a good half hour outside the marshes wishing randomers happy christmas whilst running around like a five year old catching bubbles with pure determination to never let one pop off the ground....i failed lol,but it was fun whilst it lasted!

the best part about not being a kid anymore..is getting half your presents on christmas eve instead of waking up shit early,one eye half open attempting to sneak down the stairs and opening your presents whilst nearly falling asleep on them lol!i love how my parents pick out things that i really love!i got myself like a fucking never ending supply of canvas' and paints and brand new shiney paint brushes and ohh there all so pretty!!^^

half my clothes have gone missing...and i have my suspicions,my older sisters back so i'm assuming the bitch has either hidden them all,or is wearing them all!lol.

mhm...i hope it snows!i haven't seen snow in so fucking long!speaking of which well it actually has nothing got to do with anything i was saying but it just drifted into my head i found my old bop it today!!!remember the game...that was really irritating and annying yet you had to play it until you won everyone?yeah..that baby!!ahh i'm dead happy!^^.

bloody god damn dundalk!

i'm sooo fuckign tired of being bored!i hate the fact that every week is the exact same!
school monday to friday town on friday town saturday and sunday..oh yeah and in town all we seem to do is hang round the marshes,get kicked out because or stupid group is too big and even if your not actually in the group?you'll still managed to get kicked out..simply because your a teenager!
all this happens bar you know..the odd time when..{wait for it} dun dun dun!!! a gig comes along!they only happen once a month but the build up to it it's like" ah wow i can't wait for this ahh ahh blah blah fucking blah" the gig itself turns out to be rubbish,you get pissed and can't remember the half of it,get with someone you more than likely will regret and all this is the highlight of a teenager in dundalk!
yeah..you guessed it!were a pretty sad bunch!

also...why is there so many people that associate anybody who doesn't dress like a queen of fucking knackers as a "grunger" my god...come up with new insults already!
i'm so fucking bored of everything!including the fact that my life is like a fucking cracked record. and also...i hate socks! a few people may know what i'm talking about but i really do!

why in godsname is there such a lack of them!please if anybody knows the answer post it to "desperate".

arrgghh!

i hate trade fairs ¬¬.
three hours,three whole god damn hours of making a tea cup! a fucking tea cup!my god....tradr fairs are horribble horrible things!!! stupid cafe...stupid guitar..stu[id glitter!grr!
ah wow..the whole day off classes!great?haha...wrong! personallt i hate days where you do nothing,no classes just bum round the school or seomthing,mailny because i actually have no idea what to do with myself!so today i went and goes you know what?i'll make the sign...none of my ideas were taken into account,am i bothered?not really no. so we made a poster...and went to put glitter on the words,the glitter fucked up and there was shit loads of the paper yuo could still see!so..me being the stupid god damn freak decided to spen my entire lunch and a further hour and a half fixing this so our stand could look "pretty" ¬¬.
arrrggghhh!

man....i'm hungry!:/

smiles all round!

ahah well...today was quite the uhm..exprience!>< woke up..tought my brother french my god that boy's thick!had no breakfeast and ran out the door with a nutrigrain bar in my mouth at what...twelve o clock on my day off!!lol.
the things i do for people!anyways..where was i,yeah but like yeah..so i eventually reached tesco and i went in search of the cheap ass milk chocolate and a drink and i discovered some nutrigrain bars and i was feeling hungry so i thouhg fuck it..so what if i become obese lol!
i was getting all these funny looks and i was like ehh..what the fuck do i have stare stamped on my head?it was only then i relised i was fucking bopping round singing along to my ipod in the queue i was dying!!

i eventually found out where the grammer was..and i bumped into a few mates on the way lol. it was a free wear day so they managed to sneak me in and the teachers passed no remarks what so ever!!!lol.
i though it was good craic lol. mhm.

town on the other hand,my god!there was nobody in but i found a few peoplee to keep me sane. i'm a comoulsive buyer i buy when i'm happy sad or angry lol!i just can't helo it sooo i bought a flower badge pink lemonaid pringles and uhm a new bag it's sooo pretty!!^^

my god.

man...
friends you say,well..i'm right here. i don't get it. meh...i'm giving up,on everything. everyone.
today was shite...well yeah,pretty much. well..no,the ending was awful. the day itself was pretty good.
made friends with the bagel guy's nial and richard!and we now have our own specials,to me that's a great and wonderfull achievement. we also made friends with the guy from penny's whos name i can't quite remember but sure no matter.
i'm sorry about today,i really am. sometimes i just need to explode and stuff..lol perfect timing eh? sorry little guy who i probaly scared shitless i'm pretty sure i put you off girls for life,my bad!
it's nice to know people are going through the same things that you are.
were in this together i guess lol.

man,i need to control my anger :S paint could work..kinda?
agh.

tgif?

T.G.I.F!

lol...man,normally i adore fridays,but today..I've went through every emotion that I'm capable of going through! happy this morning..also tired,angry towards the end of school bored in town confused about people/things in general. I'm easily confused and tend to blank out an awufl lot..but i am working on it lol.
it's official i'm an awfully moody person,oh well!lol.

i had the nicest subway of my life today it was so fucking ahhh*drools* lol. mhm, also...for the first time ever,i've tried an pringle subway!!!sounds gak?but my god it's yup!gak..that just reminded me gok wan's going to dublin on saturday man i'd love to go!!:( god damn lack of money.
mhm..I've mixed feeling about tomorrow,it's town yeah..which is always boring but some how you manage to get a good laugh with your friends but mhm theres a gig on and i really don't want to go but there's nothing else to do...then there's the flag day which involves me going to superquinn at like fucking ten in the morning..so basically i stand around with a bucket for an hour or two begging for money..fun!!

man..i'm so sleepy!and it's so bloody cold!i was not born for this weather!!lol!

bleh.

mhm..not a good day,i feel distant from everyone lately..and i have no idea like do i smell or something?lol.
ah..anyways.yeah...it's so annoying,thus my wierd compulsive blogging which mainly consist of rants but sure,no matter.
right now the only thing keeping me sane?is tea...my paints and those few nice people i talk to on msn,i've become an addict of msn too lately :S
so my life isn't exactly what you'd call intresting but on the bright side i sat and watched ameile again man i love that film!she's soo pretty and her whole lifes just so bizzar!you've gotta love the french :]

mhm...saturday,what to do what to do. to gig?or not to gig? right now..not to gig seems like a good enouhg option. go into town shit early,sell flags for the life boat people {yeah..i'm just that cool lol} bum around town till people actually turn up ehh...oh buy a four euro tub of ice-cream from the really nice ice-cream lady that me and alex made friends with!^^ uhm..i'm in the mood to buy flowers so i might by some fro my room eh..oh paints!and then come home around seven..yeah!that sounds pretty decent to me!
plan.

good news.

apparently i rant too much. so i'm going to satasfy you all by writing happy,preppy feel good man i live my life blogs.oh and to you fuckers who won't actually say these things to my face...grow some balls :]

good news.

uniform!

what is the point of uniform checks?? seriously,whewn you think about it...everyone breaks some sort of rule; like from make up to jewllery it's an all girls school for godsake! mhm...i just happened to be wearing every signle thing under the sun!not cool...lol.
mhm,schools so boring today!and we have to do reharsals for pretty much most of the week and if i hear don't stop me now one more fucking time i will actually go insane!!!

and i want to kill a certain ginger,but i think everyone knows that.lol.

mhm...i'm hungry,but on the bright side it's only like ten wait no twelve min's till break!mhm...oasis and eh,oh a chocolate nutri-grain bar.little addictive cunts!lol. but there so god damn nice!!!!!lol.

i love making up fake plans to kill people..it's so pointless but make everyone feel so much better about themselves and it saves the efofrt and bother of actually starting a fight and all that shite!see where i'm comming from?like...mhm i don;'t know lets take a girly girl who for some strange reason everyone love but she's comepelty made up and she's only liked for her make up and designers and clothes. you starve them from therer designer labels and make up that costs fifty euro to look at. poor girl..now she has to be like a normal person.idiot. lol.

i love blogs!!:]

i hate mondays.

i actually hate them...there always so fucking shite and blehhh!today was such a bore. and to be honest,i'm sick of not talking to people,
and i'm hungry..which doesn't exactly improve my mood or views on things at the moment.
i'm sick of not being able to trust people..and i'm sick of the people who if i say anything to blow it wayyy out of proportion and what not. like come on!!arrggghh! and my blogging days were going so well up until this fucking god damn shitty moment of self pitty and annoyance.
and theres no nice food in the house.arrgghh!

jam pot?

pift. and my hair is doing my fucking god damn head in!!you know when your like ah wow..i love this cut i'l so get it and then it grows out and hits that horrible tween level..where it's not short enough and not long enough and looks like one enormus ball of pink mush?yeah..that's the discription on my hair!! so..i'm on the brink of fucking shaving it..i think the sinead o connor look would suit me just lovely..don't you?

ahhh!!!not a good moment.