arrggghhh!

i hate cooking!¬¬
i haven't done home ec up until this year..with good fucking reason,mainly being..i can't cook!at all!and today i had to spend what..three classes on making a tiramsu and yeah arrggghhh!for some competition which i was forced to do may i add which i hate!!
today was so dossy..i did nothing!oh and i got to like hand out these little heart shaped lollypops for cancer around the school..and like okay,there a euro but there for a good cause yes?and did like anybody by them?no. my god!people are so unbeliveably stingey..it's not even funny!one euro for a lolly that's really pretty and tastes amazing and at the same time your donating money to people with cancer!ugghhh!stupid bastards.

there's nothing good on t.v. and i STILL can't go outside not until like wedensday which is a load of bollocks and ugh!:(

good buzz!

well today was ella's barn which was actually good enough craic...no classes ate cake took pictures and ate heart shaped lollies!^^
and..i had my hair back today for the first time in like..two years!:O shock..yes i know lol. any-hu!
i've been in a good mood today so far,i just need something to spoil it now. i think i'm like allergic to night times or something because i'm always well..i'm normally in a good mood until like six or seven and then i go all "ah..the worlds against me i'm going to sit and write about my problems now" like you know?:L

nevermind.
i'm really likeing pictures on blogs at the moment!

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ahh...i feel so full!oh my god the worst thing ever happened to me today!well..it wasn't that bad really but it sucked!i was fucking starvin' and like i went to the canteen and got brown bread a a yoghart because like healthy and i'm trying to give up chocolate and of course i forgot a spoon and i opened the butter and like the bread fell..so i couldn't eat that,so i had to use a knife!!¬¬

lol lunch was actually the best craic i've had in a long time!i haven't been hyper in ages and i can't remember the last time i actually felt like such a child!we just kept fucking pushing each other off the chairs and firing cushions and paint at eachother lmao!^^

painted the stilts for the traidfair finals today,lime green...oh sha!
ella's barn tommorrow should be well cute!^^ and...i finally finished my french prokect today on fashion you had to say which model you wanted to look like and which clothes blah blah and who got a b who did?me!lol
i want to look like agyness deyn,or audry hepburn ¬¬
ohh shaaa!!i just put a picture on my blog,okay i actually seen them on peoples blogs and wanted to know how the hell they did that lol.

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why,seriously!what is your problem!or like..yeah,better yet,what's mine..i don't know what's wrong with me lately,i can't stop it and i'm not talking to all the people i normallt talk to.i hate it when this happens..you become friends with people and then suddenly they stop talking to yuo and you'se fall out for an unknown reason.blehhh.

pancake tuesday!

well...today was a load of bollocks,it really and truly was.
art today,had to draw profile pictures which sucked, but then again i couldn't really but sam's beauty on paper.

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and had to make liek shit loads of pancakes which weren't even half cooked and they were so shammy looking and grosse and ugh.
sai is cool :)

...or so she thinks.

o...OOOOOOO bitchy r we sinead or should i say...aids.

what the fuck?fucking lesbian ¬¬ lol ahh i kid,i love her really lol.^^
can't really say the samefor some of the other fag's in the class though but sure no matter,can't helo who you like i guess!in my case..i just don't seem to like that many of them.
and there all looking well reading this..why is beyond me but sure i just keep on typing.

i had paint on my face all day andi only copped on now :S not cool.
my "n" problem doenst seem to be going away!!

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well the gig was last night,me and alex did our set and it wasn't half as scary as i thouhgt it was.
i sucked...and i kept looking down at the guitar and whenever i lifted my head up i could see people being all like "thumbs up" and i could just feel my cheeks burning lol.
i actually don't know what i did that night..and like i wouln't mind i was compeletly sober i actually can't just remember!

i hate my "n" problem and alex's too,it's a load of shite!and like i can't say it to anyone because if i do i'll just feel stupid and oh my god i don't know ¬¬
at least i had a chinease today,that wasn't so bad!

my dah bought be the first cathy davey album and shiney blue shoes today..for no reason,so i've got something to be happy about now lol.

i need a fun day,just a day dedicated to pure fun..if that makes sense :S
i'm so bored,like unbeliveably bored,and emotional!arrrgggghhhh.
sai popped round tonight so,i felt very loved i missed that girl and everyone else. i hate being grounded they might as well just tie me up and keep me in the shed for a month!there's not much of a difference anyways!

i highly dislike that girl...with a fucking passion!why people like her is totally beyond me!i mean come on!and she's oh so "scene" faggot. ¬¬

i need a hug. i haven't been propperly happy since like...the summer or yeah actually the summer!before i found out what people were like and when everyone was nice and i wasn't actually grounded. i'm missing everything!it's not fair!and i know i sound like a whiney cunt but fuck it i don't care!!
also..why!why in godsname!it's back..and i was doing so well,it was gone actually no i haven't seen it since like november mabey,but nope...arrrrggghhh. help!:(

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okay so,the first week is finally over.just three more to go until freedom!lol. can't wait for the gig on saturday,although i'm slightly worried about actually playing like,what if they all stay in and make a laugh and yeah..me and criticism don't go to well,at all!!
i've been looking at photo's and my god,i've never noticed so many of my fucking flaws i knew i had a few but...fuck sake!this just put a dampner on my whole life now!!¬¬ njfbvipvnp

arrrgggghhhh!

miiih!i want to paint on my wall,might to that tomorrow.it'll give me something to do other than sleep i guess.

well today was rather boring!¬¬ nothing happened..at all!and i've got this horroble thing tomorrow for relegion that we have to act out infront of the fifth first and second years! okay..first and seconds years i couldn't care less about,but fifth years!:| that i simply cannot do!and i wouldn't mind...i said i didn't want to to it and what happened?she made me!!stupid fucker.

mini gig tomorrow at lunch,mixed feelings on that one!it could go really well or...reallly bad!:S mainly because there a pack of rebellious stoners who are threatning to bring "fans" and play in the nick!x]

i don't think i can handle the boredom much longer,i hope people visit me next week :S otherwise i most propably will go insane!and belive me...it's not fun!i made a smiley and a happy face out of a fucking polysterine cup today in maths!!><
mhm..i'm feeling tired!and it's so early jesus.
cen fath is there never anything good ar an telfis??? man i need to brush up on me irish!:S

wedensday blues.

i hate the way wedensday t.v. is always crap!i normally don't have to watch it because you know i go outside for ages come home go on this when everyones on get sleepy go to bed but nope.i just simply had to get myself grounded,as always at the most fucking akward times!right before the mid -term. so,guess how i'll be spending it: asleep,playing guitar on my own,that sounds sooooo pathetic. ugghh!!!!i think i've got like the mid week blues or something,which isn't really nice to be having.

i had the wierdest dream ever last nigh!i was like best friends with someone who i haven't talked to propperly in well over a year and i was actually so close to them it's unreal!and i ended up falling out with them but got back friends and we were in tanagh it was just so strange,old times :/
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okay...now i'm just anoyed!not only is there nothing on t.v. there's nobody online who's bothered to talk to be and there's nothing to eat!

mhm!

i want new hair.my old hair,nice thick hair that's brown.and i'll never get it back ever!¬¬ i neeed a capo badly note to self,invest in one!
I'm the the mood for a brunch!^^ yum..i lived on those in the summer those and the slushies you got from the shop that's like two seconds away from the pretty place in the park!i wish it was summer already!i'm so sick of school and everyones childish behavior and in summer it all just floats away and everyones chilled and relaxed.
i miss just lying on the grass and the sun shining and everyone laughing and getting along!and the smell of grass that's just been freshly cut!once you smell that...you know it's summer! i remember last summer like towards the end there was litrilly everyone of the people i liked and that i was close to all lying on the grass just chilling and talking about random things and even the people that hated each other just got along!and all my old mates that used to hang round with us were there before they fucked off into sixth year and collage and mannn....summer,where are you?

drama queen.

i actually really do hate being in an all girls school. bitchyness galore!!!¬¬
and to be honest i'm sick of it. i'm sick of all the fake smiles and dirty looks sly remarks and silent fights and most of all i hate when you leave a room and you come back and everythings compeltly silent and yeah..that's basically it!lol!!uggh....i wish i was less angry. "pissy myers" lol.
if i wasn't close with two people i most propably would go insane or become a hermit of some source,although one i don't get to see due to different years and stuff which suck but sure no matter!and i know i take all this way to seriously and i take all these things to heart!but i actually can't help it!!and they know what i'm like so arrrggghhhhh! ¬¬

The beached whales are coming in friday..should be interesting!hope all goes to plan and that they don't end up stripping and running though the school..it wouldn't actually shockl me!:L

i'm beginning to think i'm dyslexic!either that or i just forget how to type on a keyboard lol.

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well..it's snowing!awwh it actually looks so pretty!and it's that propper snow that you can make snowmen out of!not that shitty snow that melts before you even get to look at it which is un-usual!lol.
grounded isn't too bad,i found my other plugs so i can keep that open,and i also found a lovley packet of kimberly biscuits!:]
i miss town though..as much as i complain about it,it's soemthing to do i guess!i just hope the gig will go well.
by the end of this i'll know who my friends are ^^
awh mann i'm hungry...think i'll go eat those biscuits!

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why can't something good happen!just once...just fucking mabey one time something good can happen to me instead of all this shit!and i'm sick of it!!
between loosing friends,stress stupid fucking english teachers and plugs!
yeahh you've guessed it!i got caught with my plug today..not a good month.

okay so things are finally begining to sort things out...about time eh?
csi sucked tonight!i should really be doing my portfolio but i could not be fucking arsed at all...and i need to get smokes which means i have to get up reallly early arrrggghhhh :[
mhm,i miss it terribly and i actually forget what it's like. my god it sucks...where in godsname are you?asshole.lol.

ahhhhhhhh oh my god,i'd kill for an ice-burger right now,or remember the special edition twisters where there like strawberry or a straberyy calipo!damnn!

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i have fallen in love with albert nindas version of wueithering heights!!!it's amazing!
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another tuesday in school!and guess what,it's raining yet again!!¬¬
i'm stuck in the computer room in the castle for european studies,i'm s'pose to be writting about antrim or something gay along those lines but i'd much rather do this to be honest.
i can't hack the bitchyness anymore!i hate being in an all girls school,theres so much lies and arrggghhhhh!!!and the thing is,in the class there's differen't cliques and in mine there's six,but if you fall out with one you fallout with them all!and ugghh i don't know,i'm just really disliking school today :S
i miss the song workshop..it was so much better.i'd soo fucking kill for a scone right now!
arrgghhh!!p.e....me and gaelic don't go well at all!!!

breathe.

well..i'm most definatly a calmer sin today!lol.but i don't know...it's happening again,okay i'm a very dis organised person,but i do actullally get things done!just not till the last minuet but i do!and well the stress of this is actually ridcilous,once again people aren't pulling their weight and once again there what...two out of six that actually give a damn about pulling this off!it's just so stupid and at the end they claim all the credit,not this time love!

also...what the hell,why do people bother spreading rumous!okay fair enough..we all do it in some way shape or form but like come on!some idiot's going round trying to sabotage a gig that we've worked out fucking asses off for all for what exacltly...a wierd hatred for one of the members?or just for their own personal amusment.

also love,CALM DOWN lol. i think you know who i'm refering to!things will work out in good time just not for a while and it will happen eventually!

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That pretty much sums up how i feel lol.
you know when your like..yeah "i hate her" or like.."my god i hate him" but you don't really mean it your just angry at them?yeah..i never thought i'd actually grow such a hatred to such a two faced asswipe who hasn't even got the balls to any of this to my face!but then again like you know..i'm a horrible person i guess,because what..I FUCKING TELL THE TRUTH!!!!was it be who makes peoples lives misery?no. me who makes people un happy?no! me who gets everyone cought in my web of betryal and lies??no!!!
so just fuck off already!stop it with your fake smiles and hugs and "yay i'm such a nice person" because my god your not love..your far from it!!!
AND HOW DARE YOU bad mouth me to people!making up stupid lies like "i stole your whatever friends"because i actually didn't!you never know..you might get them back by sluting around or soemthing!yeha becuse thats how friendships are made these days love!!!